Yeah I know its been awhile..
I have been toying with the idea of transferring to another school possibly Central Connecticut or St. Joes. Don't get me wrong, I love living in Boston and having a great group of friends. But I have always felt that I did not really fit in here academically. It just doesn't seem right. I am gonna have a serious talk tomorrow with my parents so they can help give some perspective on what I should do. I know that they will support me in anything I decide, but I would like to get their opinion.
By commuting into Central or St. Joes, I will save my parents alot of money. I view that they shouldn't spend all this money on me, on something that I do not think feels completely right. I would also get to coach the Special Ed kids all throughout the year. Also I could work and save up money for grad school and beyond.
I hate to be the bearer of this news. But being at Simmons has almost been a emmotional stressful rollercoaster. I feel like I am digging myself deeper and deeper into emmotional hell and will not be able to get myself out. I have been there before and I do not want to be there ever again.

Love Always,
Erin

Winter break is over and its now the beginning of a new semester. Winter break was great. Got to catch up with some family and friends whom I havent seen in awhile. My greatest gift for Christmas was a massive red sox blanket from my parents. It is now sitting on my bed in my dorm room. MMM...soft and cozy.
Right after new years, I went to FL to visit my grandparents. They live in one of those active retirement communities, where everything you could possibly imagine is within a 5 mile radius. It was pretty nifty, not too mention the fact that we had a sweet rental car. It was a 2006 silver blue Ford Mustang convertible. I had fun driving that baby.
Grades came in as well. I did really well this semester. I thought seriously I was going to fail Spanish because I had a really bad professor, even though I was constantly working my ass off trying to succeed. I ended up getting a C+, the rest of my grades were As and Bs.
Before break, I had the chance to groove with some old friends at the Fleetcenter. Their names were Dave, Carter, Stefan, Boyd, Leroi, and Butch aka the members of DMB. The concert was totally amazing. Everyone was literally dancing in the aisles, except my roomie, but thats another story.
First day of classes was yesterday, they went well. I like all my professors. Thats all for now.
Erin

10 firsts:
first best friend: Katie Griffin
first concert: Destinys Child and Christina Aguilera
first screen name: Specs314
first enemy: I didnt/dont have any
first piercings: none
first crush: Lance Bass from NSYNC
first music: Willie Nelson
first school: First Church Nursery School

9 lasts:
last cigarette: never smoked
last kiss: from my mommy this morning :)
last movie seen: War of the Worlds
last phone call: From the family ( I was on speaker phone)
last cd played: Dave Matthews and Tim Reynolds Live at Luther College
last bubble bath: like when I was 10
last time you had sex: nope not yet
last time you ate something: it was about 7 this evening, I had an apple

8 have you evers:
have you ever dated your best friend: yes
have you ever skinny dipped: no
have you ever been on tv: yup
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: yes
have you ever fallen in love: yep...not currently, though
have you ever lost someone you loved: yes, surrogate grandpa RIP FitzAcorns
have you ever been depressed: yes
have you ever woken up and not know where you were: yeah happened this weekend when I was at home
7 places you've been to:
1. All over Italy
2. Switzerland
3. South Carolina
4. Florida
5. Ohio
6. CT represent!
7. Boston!
6 things you've done today:
1. Drove back to Boston with my dad and bro
2. Ate a grilled cheese with tomato
3. Had breakfast with my family
4. Kissed my little neice goodbye
5. Went for a run
6. This questionnaire thingy

5 favorite things in NO order:
1. Family and Friends
2. Music (Dave your my hero!)
3. My Kandy Kane Pickup
4. Red Sox
5. My Fender guitar

4 people you can tell anything to:
1. My brother, Morgan
2. My sis, Kelly
3. My Mom
4. A couple close friends

3 wishes
1. Meet my hero: Dave Matthews
2. Be happy for the rest of my life
3. Everyone that I care about lead a wonderful life as well

2 Things you want to do before you die:
1. Go to Ireland
2. See the Sox win another series
1 thing you regret:
1. Having the ability to lie, I wish we all, including myself, could be truthful

Today was mostly a day of reflecting for me. I thought about the person I am, and the person who I do not want to be. I do not want to be a hypocrite or a hurtful person in any way, shape, or form.
Met with one of my advisors in the education department today. Looks like I am going to do the 5 year program which when I am through I will have my masters and like 95% off the students end up with job offers at the higher end of the pay scale. So we will see what happens.
I am going home this weekend and I am so amped. I need a break from this stressful college life, which is stressful socially and academically. I know I do not go into much detail with situations, but if you really want to know just ask. I do not want to point fingers of blame by naming names anyway because thats just not cool, and personally I dont think that makes a situation better.
Educ class today was awesome. We viewed a film showing the different ways of teaching about homosexuality in the classroom, which by the way is a very heated issue. I personally think it is an issue that should be discussed in the classroom at an early age. This comes from personal experience because when I was in middle school at a small catholic school in CT, we had a principal who was the absolute best principal a school could ask for. There was just one problem....he was gay. My parents and I personally had no problem with his sexual orientation, it was that he was dong positive stuff for the school, is what we were really concerned about. Some parents thought otherwise. He was gone before the end of the school year. I am still pissed about it. Its going to be the subject of my social justice case study for education. Life sometimes is not fair at all. Okey dokey. Enough ranting for now. Have a good nite. Love ya for who ya are. Erin

I dont know. I interpret someones character and they end up being someone completely different. Has that ever happend to you? I have been told recently that I am too nice for my own good.
A good use for livejournals is talking about your life and how sometimes it just plain sucks. But a disadvantage to livejournal is that instead of getting identifying problems, you come here and bitch about them and nothing gets solved. A good thing to do when you have a problem is to talk it out with another person instead of some computer and come to a logical solution.
I have a heavy decision to make within the next week and I think I have a answer but I have a fear of hurting people emotionally.
Not too add to the fact that I have been sick for like the last week and I still feel miserable. I have been feeling like not doing much of anything except sleeping, eating, and being lazy. I still try and do some schoolwork now and then, after all thats why I am here.

So this weekend was a great weekend all in all. Left Friday night to go to Kedars dads house in Longmeadow. For the first time and sorry to say it but the only time I watched Rocky Horror picture show. Wow that was interesting, its not my kind of movie. Um yeah... Then we watched Office Space which including Dumb and Dumber are some of my favorite comedy classics. Sunday was a good day too. Went to the aquarium and lunch with my friend Jared. It was fun but I am so tired and I think I am getting a cold. I have a sore throat and am all stuffed up... Yuck... Need sleep, echinchea, vitamin c, and some booze. HAHAHA JK. I still retain my sense of humor when I am sick. Hope all is well with everyone. Take care.

Family weekend is this weekend. Should be interesting. The rents and sis are coming up to visit. I was thinking of taking them up to Yawkey Way just to for them to see it. Going on the harbor cruise and then out to mr dooleys pub for some traditional irish food and music. I am proud to be Irish. Dont I look it anyway?

I still love the sox even though they won the wild card and then broke my heart and ripped it to shreds and stomped on it over and over and over again. I guess I have to wait another 85 more years for them to win another series. I still might be around. Tek your my hero. I say that because I bought a red sox dvd made by nesn at best buy the other day and they showed the brawl between the sox and the damn yanks. Arod punched Tek in the mouth and the sox have the mentality that if you mess with one you mess with them all. they showed the image too of Tanyan Sturtz ( a yankee pitcher) on the bottom of pile of red sox. Good times.

Just got back from my service learning gig at Farragut School. I broke up a fight. People sometimes think that working with kids is easy. They have no idea. I still love it though. Played basketball and "ball tag" which is basically dodgeball (wasnt that made illegal?) Take it easy guys. I have some homework that kinda needs to get done.

So the purpose of me being in boston is not to go to sox games or see Dave in December. The purpose my friends is to learn something and discover where I want to be in this crazy world we live in. There is the constant drone from authority figures :what do you want to be? And the truth is I have absolutely no idea. Yes I am thinking teaching because I can use my quick wit and work on my sometimes juvenile stand up routine. LOL. Here is a sampling.

I worked over the summer at a small insurance agency. Sometimes after a hard day at the office we would go out and hang out with eachother. At these little get togethers we would get a little silly and the topic of our clients would come up. We would make fun of their names. We have a Pat MeGloin (sound it out!)and a Harry Sack, Tony DeBonee, and not too mention Harry Sack. What are people thinking when they name their kids these names. You are setting your kid up for public humiliation.

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Yeah so its wednesday afternoon. went home this past weekend which totally rocked. got to see the fam and sleep in my own bed which is always good. The worse part of the weekend was seeing the end of another red sox season. What am I going to do til April when spring training starts? My dad suggests that I study, after all that is why I am here in the first place. My life is going to seem so empty. LOL. And with the arrival of April, there is going to be a different sox team. Johnny Nitro is probably gone as is Kevin Millar. I wish they would get rid of Renteria, they should have kept Cabrera. Despite all these misfortunes I am happy to report however that the yanks lost. Hahahaha. Stupid Arod grounded into a double play in the 9th inning with 1 man on and no outs. Now here is a question, Who would you rather have in that situation? Papi or Arod? Thats a toughie....alrighty talk to ya'll later. Have a good one.

So yeah I am going home tomorrow for the four day weekend. I am so amped. Get to see the fam and the pooch. Gonna be some good food and good times.
Today I had my first day at my service learning site which is the Farragut School. It was alot of fun but I realized how privledged I was to learn in an excellent school system. Farragut school is a poor inner city public school. The kids were a lot harsher then the kids in Windsor CT. This situation motivates me even more to make a difference. I know that sounds corny but hey I dont care what you think. LOL. It was a great experience and I get to do it every Thursday for the rest of the semester. Well TTFN, tata for now. Erin